“All my longings lie open before you, O Lord; my sighing is not hidden from you.” Psalm 38v.9
There are no secrets between God and I. He is the One person I can be totally, scarily honest with and have no fear of repercussions or judgment. I figure He created me, knows my heart and my mind, hears my cries and sees my fears- I have nothing to lose in being an open book with my Heavenly Father.
Granted we have people in our lives we confide in and turn to, and they are precious, but we can lay it ALL before the Lord. Every little bit. Even when the words are too hard to form, He gets us. When the pain is off the charts, He has been there and understands what we are going through. He knows all our deepest desires and greatest goals in life.
When you hear someone sigh, what does it mean? Contentment, frustration, physical pain, impatience, sorrow, empathy, desire… none of theses are hidden from God. He hears every single one, even the sigh of desperation in the middle of the night when you think no one hears or cares. We often mask our sighs to cover up our true feelings. Being English, the “stiff upper lip” mentality is ingrained in me, and the temptation to brush issues aside and pretend everything is FINE is sometimes overwhelming. But with the Lord, I don’t have to. Actually, I can’t!
My “longings”, whether they are self-centered desires or purely motivated yearnings for others, are totally exposed to the One who hears and answers. His lap is always available and His ear constantly willing to listen with perfect patience to my sighing. And then He provides the grace and wisdom I need to walk through it all.
I am an open book with God, and when I am open enough, He turns the pages.